the first children's day in college was quite unique as i had ever experienced.
some nifty guy invited me to celebrate the festival belonging to children with him, who just took this advantage to asked me to be his girlfriend, but, unfortunately, we just hung out on that children's day and no further stories.
 
the second children's day since i entered university was not so childish. my family and i were busy with the stuffs to move in our newly decorated home seeking for delicate and suitable furniture and so on.

the third one, yesterday, it was a rainy day. i thought it should be as usual, whild he gave the little drawer back to me filled with a candy and a pretty ugly toy lion. it was filled with chocolates sent by Danny costing nearly 600RMB. 
i went home with the children's day present telling myself that i should smile, while actually i wanna cry...

i don't know what the next children's would be like. but i clearly know that i'm no longer a child, i have to face the problems in my life, i should be mature enough to solve them smoothly. though every adult hopes to bear the pure mind and simple happiness as children, it's hard for me to keep them when i am growing up.

u've said it's ok, again and again.
u've said u had got full preparation to accept the predictable result.
u've said no big deal, life will move on.
u've said no more tears after that night
u've said there are so many other people u should cherish who are really caring about u.
u've said u are always rational enough to be calm and contral urself.
u've said he's not ur style.
u've said u r pround and confident.

u've said so many things, so what?
none of them is true...

y do u always smile while u feel heartstricken?
y do u drop tears in front of other none business people but never him?
y do u indulg urself with the trivias relating to him?
y do u accept his goodbye hug which u may be addicted to but can never have again?
y r u even not able to hold ur tears when playing the familiar Overture or even March with the orchestra?
y didn't u tell him, when u had so many words wanna him to know?
 

let it go~
life will move on
it's ok